VariANT

November 10, 2008

vari•ant (-ənt)

adjective
1. varying; different; esp., different in some way from others of the same kind or class, or from some standard or type
noun

2. anything that is variant, as a different spelling of the same word, a different version of a tale, myth, or literary passage, etc.

Or…. a variation in plans?



THINGS turned out differently then I had planned.

We are still in Albuquerque.

On October 1st we were ready to go. My furniture was already in Utah. However, there was one huge hurdle concerning leaving El Jay here. Not knowing what I knew. I could not leave him. I made the hardest choice of all for me. To make a phone call and let the cards fall…. I would be starting something that would be painful and far reaching for my family. I knew I had no other choice, even if it meant remaining here indefinitely and possibly becoming homeless.


I was actually on the phone. Making that all important phone call when the doorbell rang. It was the Fed-Ex guy with an envelope. I was about to get an answer to my prayers. Well, one of many prayers. The letter was from the mortgage company, saying they were going to restructure my loan after all. I felt a huge burden lifting from my shoulders and I knew that my prayers had been heard. My basic needs acknowledged.
The last 6-weeks have been very stressful for with each blessing, it seems I am also given a trial to conquer.

On Halloween, I got sick. At first, I thought it was a bad sinus infection. It wasn’t….. I finally gave in and went to the ER where I was diagnosed with Ramsay Hunt Syndrome. See the picture? THAT was me at the worst of it. At times the pain was so bad… so so bad. It is still bad. I am still scabby and healing. There is still pain.

I don’t know what is next. I am here for the duration. I am job hunting. I am hoping to go back to school in the Spring.